When I was a kid I can remember be extremely insecure about myself. People would tell my how pretty I was, or they would tell me that I could sing well, just simple compliments, but I always seemed to never believe them. I always said in my own mind that they were just trying to be nice. Many people think that insecurity comes from something bad that has happenend to you like abuse or someone talking down to you all the time. Not the case at all for me. I came from a good family where my dad always told me how pretty I was and that he loved me. I knew he mean’t it. The insecurity I was wrapped up in went much deeper! I JUST DIDN’T HAVE ANY HOPE THAT I WAS GOOD ENOUGH!
I allowed mind games to play in my mind all day when I was at school, church, and at home. I would beat myself up over everything! I always seemed to think that I needed to work harder and be better at everything! I have always believed in true excellance and I strive to make that happen, but as a child it became a jail for my emotions.
As I grew up, I would tell myself that I wasn’t good enough to sing, dance, speak to other people or sometimes even have friends. My emotions would just wrap me up and take over me. But as I allowed the God of my life to become the HIGHIEST POWER IN MY LIFE, I found true HOPE THAT I WAS CREATED IN HIS IMAGE AND IN HIS LIKENESS!
Because of the HOPE THAT GOD WAS FOR ME, I began to find my God-given talents and gifts. Today, I speak to teenagers and adults every week one on one and in a public setting such as High Schools and Church. Today, I can sing without shaking so much that I look like I’m going to pass out (lol). Today, I can teach others how to express their worship and praise through dance and drama. Today, I actually believe that I’m good enough to be used by God to give others Hope for another day!
Hope Rose in me because I told those mind games to stop playing and I allowed the God who is Hope to become my Highiest power!
There is HOPE!
RVN 